How
Could I Go Back?
In response to a request in August of 2002, I submitted the following article to Lonni Collins Pratt for possible inclusion in a book. An email was later received thanking me for my contribution. In December, 2002, not having heard more, I sent an inquiry but the email came back as undeliverable. I assume the book is dead. Having taken the time and effort to record my thoughts, I offer them here.
p.s. This is not the same as the Willard Scott book.
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I am
asked, In the light of the current priest pedophile scandal in the
church, have I decided to remain a Catholic and why? Until the
question was asked, it didn’t occur to me that a choice was needed, and
so, I remain a Catholic.
I am
a ‘cradle Catholic’, born and raised in the faith. I am a product of
Catholic grade schools and a Catholic high school, a former altar boy in a
time when the Mass was celebrated in Latin and the altar boys responded
for the congregation of people who ‘attended’ Mass. But after high
school the church could not answer my questions. There was no logic in it.
I’m not referring to the Gospel message. I knew little of that. I am
talking about rules and regulations. My doubts in that regard led me to
question the existence of God.
When,
after many years and the influence of many people, Catholic and
non-Catholic, I rediscovered God and found my own spirituality, I was
already a Catholic in name and I had been ‘attending’ Mass. I found
myself in a new parish, a parish populated with welcoming Christians,
dedicated to their faith and full of love for everyone. I finally realized
that the church was its members, not the institution. I was absorbed into
their midst and became one of them, or rather, part of them. I consider
myself to be what I call a ‘born again’ Catholic and I found myself participating
at Mass, not just ‘attending’. I now go to Mass because I want to be
there and feel a need to be there. I
am enriched by our parish liturgies and supported by my parish family.
What
was the effect on me by the priest pedophile scandal? I felt guilty as a
member of the church that tolerated and hid the problem for years and most
likely, centuries. I felt angry with the bishops who allowed the problem
to exist and who felt that to hide it would ‘protect the church’ and
prevent ‘loss of faith’ in the church. This, I think, is the greater
sin. Even worse there are the bishops who participated in these terrible
acts. Did it shake my faith? No! My faith was never in the institution of
the church, which is a man made organization and as such is imperfect. One
has only to read church history to realize that with the help of the Holy
Spirit, the church has survived a continuous series of scandals, evils and
mistakes. The church, as an institution, will go on, hopefully, the better
for having survived, learning from another blunder.
ã Copyright 2002
Donald J Plefka
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